anna, thank you for your letter--which i received this evening (night?), after an especially long day at school. it was perfectly timed, and your handwriting was comfort food for starving eyes. i love you.
i would only be lying a little bit if i told you that yes, school and work and "life in general" is going well. for the most part, it is--as much as can be expected, i suppose. i am still wading hip-deep in questions and looming decisions, and expectations (both my own and those of others), and the various intersections of these threads have been difficult to negotiate.
but, i am optimistic. i can do this--the term is halfway over, and i will survive. yes, i have been sprinting when i should have been doling out my miles at a marathon pace, and yes, this mistake is not easy to redeem. but really, what is life but the knotting and unraveling of various experiences, various decisions, various mistakes? the purpose behind it all is rarely (if ever) apparent, and for the time being, i will focus on the means of carrying out my personal exploration, rather than devoting my mental fuel on pinpointing the ends.
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